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sometimes i rely on the label artist too much because it is such a beautifully distracting word. writer? painter? journaler? photographer? artist. tantalizing and mysterious. i told my husband tonight that i wanted to be a tattoo apprentice for awhile, to see if i wanted to be a tattoo artist, and there was the word again. evocative and soul-stirring.
this season of the new moon is especially potent. so much to release, to let sit and marinate, to absorb and see. i'm feeling subtle, external pressures to conform myself to boxes i escaped long ago, shapes which don't fit me, and it makes me restless. it makes me want to run away. two things happen when you squeeze something too tight: it slips away, like water in a clenched fist, or it is crushed to death.
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and yet ...
i am blessed. there are secret places where my soul fills out her shape, where she can frolic in rumi's field. these are dark wombs of love where i am gathered and seen, where my soul shimmers and wakens the way she is meant to, where she is nurtured and witnessed.
such gift.
as i refine my passion and purpose, as i step along my path and shed old skin, witness remains an elemental soul thread: i witness. i see you. i celebrate your soul. i am an artist. i share what i see. this is why i work and persist and survive, really. it's why i'm alive.
soul stirring prompt:
why are you alive?
You are an artist! A lovely descriptive artist.
ReplyDeleteImmediately what comes to my mind is that I alive to comfort and validate forms of being and emotion. Also to challenge. Not easy jobs actually nor do I always succeed but they do make me feel the most alive when I can give new perspective or new hope to someone to teach them or enable to love better. I also look for that same challenge and validation in my relationships or art mediums. I live for that I think as my act of lOve.
that is beautiful.
DeleteYes ... {so much affirmation} ♥
ReplyDeletethank you. <3
DeleteThis description takes me right back to a summer night when my (now) husband and I lived in western Massachusetts. There had been a storm with thunder and lighting and there was a massive power outage. I remember candles and incense and humidity; I wish we were there now. Special things to remember.
ReplyDeleteI think, this morning at least, I'm alive just to remember nights like that one.
that sounds amazing!
Deletebeautiful. will be thinking about this tonight. thank you. why am i alive?
ReplyDeletei find that the answer changes sometimes on different days. i hope you find intriguing ways to answer it for you.
DeleteI love your soulful sharings here Rain... You are a beautiful artist.
ReplyDeletethat means a lot, lauren. thank you.
DeleteI with stargardener want to whisper yes. yes yes yes.
ReplyDeletewe will keep whispering yes. we will always find a yes.
DeleteLove this. Running from chasing boxes and to the place where souls are alive with you.
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DeleteWhy am I alive? Hmm, to love and be loved? That phrase has been going through my mind lately and I quite like it. :-) I'm learning to receive love, and it is a wondrous soul-enlarging thing. :-) Today I'm alive to bask in sunshine. It is wonderful. :-)
ReplyDelete:) so glad you love the phrase and what a brilliant reason to be alive. <3
DeleteAhhh. Love.
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Deletemmmm elemental threads: healer is mine. I am alive when I'm behind/beside people and enabling them to do the thing they want to, the thing that both terrifies and ignites - and when I am my own healer, I become brave.
ReplyDeletemmmm. love this. you are SO brave. this is beautiful.
DeleteOh rain!! You inspire. Greatly. Love you dearly.
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DeleteI am alive because i was saved...Oh that sounds "religious" but it isn't...It's the truth.
ReplyDeleteI am not sure what I was saved for yet...But I am having a very interesting search...
xo Rain.
Lovely, inspirational post...
You are alive to inspire...Perhaps?
aww AnDee, thank you...and i would love to hear more. your interesting search sounds delicious. i find that sometimes they are really hard to put into words, but if you have them, i'd love to hear!
DeleteI am alive to love and be loved....
ReplyDeleteyes. just, yes.
DeleteI am alive because I am the Universe and the Universe is inside me. One of my favourite quotes is from Rumi "Do not feel alone, the entire universe is inside you."
ReplyDeleteI am alive so that I can feel and experience the world around me and so that I can bring light and happiness to those I love. So that I can hold them up and revel in nature. I am alive so that I can live.
i LOVE rumi.
Deletethis comment is so wonderful. be fully alive for the sake of life itself. life deserves this honor, i think.
This question has rattled through me for days now, stirring up more than I realized, challenging more than I cared to discuss. All I can seem to settle on is: I am alive.
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sometimes the simplest things can also be the most difficult. sitting with you in the dark and the light. <3
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