Falling slowly, eyes that know me
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won
Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing it loud...
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Falling Slowly | Glen Hansard and Markéta Irglová
And I can't go back
Moods that take me and erase me
And I'm painted black
You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won
Take this sinking boat and point it home
We've still got time
Raise your hopeful voice you have a choice
You've made it now
Falling slowly sing your melody
I'll sing it loud...
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Falling Slowly | Glen Hansard and Markéta Irglová
This is only the beginning ...
oh. .... I can do nothing but be your witness. ... so I will observe. and acknowledge your pain. I hold it safe in my heart for you. ...and I will know that you are not only your pain, though it feels like you are, I'm sure. because I have seen you, witnessed you. ... I see You.
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I see beauty in the black. I also see the tears. I have been there- I understand the chains around the neck meaning to be gifts. There is immense freedom that they will not understand once you traverse through the black. That mystery only fellow travellies can discuss and even then the interpretations are diverse.
ReplyDeleteThank you for being.
Love
I am absolutely horrible with understanding poetic words, hints in speech, etc... so I may be completely wrong, however I feel as if this post is about people wanting you to be a certain way, a way you are not? If that is correct, I am so sorry, lady. Be yourself, and let yourself shine through. Being who you are is the best, you can't be anyone else. Being the you that puts a smile on your face - that is what is important. You will love yourself and be loved by everyone else you come across when you're true to your soul.
ReplyDeleteI don't know much but I know this.. in the end, it doesn't matter what other people want. it seems like it matters. it hurts so badly when people want who they thought you were but really, maybe never were... we wear many faces in this lifetime, go through many phases of growth and receding and they are so very personal. you are enough exactly where you are and whatever you're thinking, believing or living. people either get used to the fact that you can't go back to what you might never have been in the first place or maybe were for awhile or they don't get used to it. in my experience, the ones worth having around, eventually move away from their own agendas and open their arms. time, it takes lots and lots of time. in the meanwhile, you are immensely loved by those willing to see you now at this space in your life. wherever and in whatever space you might be in. ( I hope I understood your post. I'm quite literal at times and get easily tripped up.) xo
ReplyDeleteMy mouth is hanging open--gaping. I'm waking up slowly but surely; "I can't be what you want. I can't be yours." I can't even explain how I am connecting to your words. Thank you.
ReplyDeleteI have nothing to add, nothing I can say that captures the raw painful beauty of your words. Thank you for allowing me to stand witness to your journey. As you wake up, I want your heart to hear love, encouragement, acceptance. I am one who stands here, unseen, silently cheering you, my sister.
ReplyDeleteOnce again your words strike me to the very bone. You are a beautifully talented lady and I share a similar ache of chains thrown on me by others. If they love you they will let you go. Stay strong. You are pure love and divinity through being true to yourself and your soul.
ReplyDeleteExpectations are indeed chains. Painful it is to cast them off. But even more painful for me to realize that I had put them on another this year. If fought to keep from doing so, and am gradually learning. But the struggle was the most painful thing I have been through yet.
ReplyDeleteLove you, dear one!
Such a moving volatile post. Such sadness mixed with joy. The journey is hard, and balance helps I think. My inclination my dream would be to slip completely into my journey, to cast all else aside, but there is love, and compassion and understanding for others that is always tugging at me. The balance I guess is being true to self, and being patient and sympathetic to the grief of those who feel they have lost the one they love and know. I have found it difficult to make many understand my need to war through the dark, to feel and fall, to embrace and illuminate the shadowy places. It is the only really peace, the only real way to fearlessness, I think....
ReplyDeleteI lost track of you somehow in the last little bit, (you got quieter on facebook, I was online much less). I'VE MISSED YOU! I read this post a few days ago before it was incrypted, I don't have the code, but every part of it spoke to me. I have thought about you alot in the last few months, hoping that you have been caring for yourself as you navigate change. Rejection hurts so much. But I think I would rather feel that grief and pain over being rejected for who I am, than the bottled up rage and resentment that I feel when I try to be who they feel I must be to be acceptable to them.I hope you remember how special and unique you are. I hope you know that it is 100% ok to be who you are. I hope you find support and love of people who's love is truly unconditional.
ReplyDeletebeautiful <3
ReplyDelete"You have suffered enough
And warred with yourself
It's time that you won"
chills..
this song is one of my favourites. there's so much richness in these simple lyrics.
ReplyDeletebless you, sweet warrioress sister of mine.